Single Soul

The minister at my church is doing a series about dating and love and it's really got me thinking a lot. I've been single since October 31,2006. I'm 22 years old. It doesn't really bother me. I've been through it all- an abusive relationship that turned into a stalker, an event no one should ever have to go through, and a relationship where I thought I fell in love, but now I know I didn't. There are many other events I don't feel comfortable mentioning on something that can be read by the whole universe too! My point is I've been through a lot and I am comfortable being single. However, JD (the minister), asked the single people in the church to write a letter to God telling Him we are okay being single forever. *Gulp* But what about children and a husband and the class play? What about that life I have planned out for myself?

I filled in for one of my staff who has come down with the flu with supported employment at a local restaurant. One of the cooks, an older gentleman, told me "I'm not in any way trying to flirt with you but you are too pretty to not have a boyfriend." When I told him my life is busy and I just haven't found the right guy he asked me "But don't you get lonely?" I do and that's something I struggle with, but who says I'm not going to be lonely at times in a relationship? As JD said "A lonely pathetic single person turns into a lonely pathetic married person (okay not a DIRECT quote)."

So what's my conclusion right now? Today I am okay being single. I am still trying to figure out me. That does not mean that if the right person came along I would pass up the chance at all. It just means in the near future I am okay with my singleness. Long term I don't know yet. I think I would be. I see it this way- I've been through multiple events in the past year or so that I would consider the roughest times in my life and I didn't depend on anyone but God. I didn't need a boyfriend to hold me up, I was fine. So I will continue to be fine and depend on God and when the time comes maybe He will send me an awesome guy (with a hot body of course ;-) , but until then I am fine being single.