Busy Woman

Well first I posted this on my facebook site last night and I need input:
This weekend I realized I am old. I took a new friend, who came here from Mexico to be an au pair for a family I know to Fiesta del Pueblo. I had a good time and I enjoyed meeting people that she knew that happened to be my age. Then I realized something, she's 17- that's 5 years younger than me! Thinking back to when I was 17 I remember thing that people who had graduated college were so old and it would be forever before I got to that age. Realization: I AM THAT AGE! I'm done with college and in the real world, scary stuff.
Then today at work I realized I want to be back in college. We were in a meeting and the leader of the meeting said that the way we can figure out if our trainings are working is to look at the progress of our clients (staff implement what they learn in training on the clients). I raised my hand and said that that is not feasible as there are many extraneous variables we can't account for acting on the client that could cause a change. Their response: well we can't do anything about those. The staffing coordinator later told me they do not like people telling them that what they are doing is not correct so if I want to keep my job I better keep my knowledge to myself. UM in college I did 2 years of research. . . I know what they said is not legit because it can't be tested. Ugh I want the scholarly world back where I can question things and my knowledge is seen as a gift instead of a curse!

My second thing is I'm worried. My ex is in Iraq and hasn't logged on to myspace in 10 days which he usually checks it every 2-3 days b/c they get time and b/c he knows certain people (urhm me) use that to see if he is okay. So I'm worried. Pray he is okay and just is out on a long assignment. Pray that I don't go crazy worrying. Just pray.